This is the fourth in a series of guest posts ......it's about real struggle..real life...real pain...and getting through to the other side....thank you to all my guests for helping me find my voice....This is an awesome Aussie who can make me laugh and cry in the same minute.
Please show Alejandro Guzman the friend I call (A)...... the love and encouragement you have to me.....
I'm here on Bongo Is Me as Bonnie, Bongo or as I call her BB asked me to, so as to give her a break, a rest or to rue the day she ever asked me to.
I was initially asked because BB thought I could bring some light onto a dark site. I was hesitant as I am not what some may think me to be. So I asked myself...Do I have a dark place?
There are two sides to me and my life. I don't know how I come across to others on the www. Some may say I'm humorous, some say I'm naive, others just ignore me or regard me as somewhat of an idiot. All good!
That aside I shall tell you about me or more to the point my reasons I am the way I am.
From my writings some may think all is wonderful in Oz. Far from it. Living on one income has its challenges regarding payment of bills, petrol, groceries and rent. Yes… we are renting and in the last 4 years we have lived in 3 different domiciles as the owners had decided to sell. For a little girl just turning 3 it's a big deal and a big hassle. The renting? Not our Choice. Circumstances that I won't go into have brought us to where we are.
Some may be saying now, well go out and get a job 'you lazy bum!' My response… I am 42 and have for the very first time become a Father a Dad a Papa. And it's my choice to be a part of her upbringing and I want to cherish every moment whilst Amelie is still young and not attending school. So later maybe I shall look for work. maybe if I wasn't such a 'lazy bum'.
We live week to week by the skin of our teeth, searching for pennies when there is no more milk left, saving on things where we can. I have moments of utter despair and I enter my dark place and ponder or is it regret as to what we have chosen to do. I tend to lock myself away at times so as to feel again the freedom of solitude, where I can just be, with just me. Many times in this dark place I also end up with others on the www and on Facebook.
Some may say I'm humorous where others find my comments insulting. Those are purely your own choice on how you see me. Yet when I'm 'out there' visiting other blogs or interacting on FB I then forget or brush aside my own concerns as I see far worse. My present is from my own choices. Whereas for others it was thrust upon them through no choice of their own.
I am usually "out there' to be helpful or uplifting to others so they may find their beach. As I do find mine when I feel I have brought a smile to someones face. Yes BB I am talking about you!
To be very honest when I first visited Bongo Is Me I didn't want to look! I didn't want to be brought down further.
Yet by visiting this Blog I have come to realize that Bongo Is Me is not just Bonnie... it is all of us at some point in time.
Bongo Is Me should read "Bongo Is Us!!!"
Thank you Bonnie. I'll always be here as long as I have the breath or should I say the fingers to give you or anyone my worldly advice such as…
Remember to Flush after every meal! Or is that Brush?
Written by by my friend (A) Alejandro Guzman
Thank you A for always encouraging me..
You are an amazing person...an inspiration...and yes you
put a smile on my face XOXOXO